Kim Kardashian is one of this year’s Sports Illustrated Swimsuit cover models, and she sat down with the magazine for an in-depth interview about many aspects of her life.

The 41-year-old television star was still in shock that she had her swimsuit photo shoot in the Dominican Republic just before the interview.

“Every time I would see magazines like this, especially in the 90s when I was growing up, it’s always these perfect, tall, thin women, and I just have never been that,” Kardashian said. “I vividly remember Tyra Banks on the cover, and women with curves. I remember just thinking ‘that was so cool,’ but I still didn’t think I would ever. I thought you had to be a professional model and a runway model. And, it’s always like really young girls. I don’t want to like date myself or sound old, but in my 40s? That’s crazy. I never thought in a million years that I would be shooting one myself.”